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No. Never.

Me and my then wife were rear ended by a drunk driver. Luckily we had just dropped off my son with my parents for the weekend, because the force of the crash broke the backs of both our seats, causing them to crash down onto the back seats were my son would have been, and would have crushed his legs. We blacked out for a couple of seconds, and my wife miscarried what would have been our second child.

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Never drink and drive.

I'm so glad that Tirtul is doing well, and that it was not a more serious accident.

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lol.  I'll be there. I will not win.

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Sounds like you are really struggling right now. I have not been following this, or even known about your situation before now. However, I would suggest that you take a moment and just stop, take a deep breath and just let it out. Sit down in a quite place and try to think about who you are, distance yourself from the hurt and confusion. Just quietly, in a detached, non judgmental way, think about yourself and what you want. What are you after, whats your goal?  If it helps you can write your thoughts down. DO NOT belittle yourself, its fine to note areas where you can improve, but its not ok to use them as weapons against yourself. This is not the time to reflect on the past, or relive old hurts. What you are doing is taking stock of who you are NOW, and what you want to be in the FUTURE. Once you know who you are now, and what you want to become, you just need to find out how to connect the dots to get there.

Trying to commit suicide twice this last week is not a good use of your time lol . But seriously, this is about what makes you happy and what makes you... you. If what you want is to be a woman, then go be a woman. Hold your head up and smile, you can change your weight, you can change your gender, you can be the person you see yourself as. It will be a long, hard, painful journey, but at the end of the road you will be the person you feel you are meant to be. Conversely, if you decide that being a man isn't so bad, there is absolutely no shame in changing your mind. Who you are is not determined by your gender, or sexual preference.

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My kids would like to play on the server again.

Corwinofchaos

Riplash21

Thanks,

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Nice! We need to get together and go wreck people in the World v world

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I'm starting back up I think. Tried it out again last night, picked some pockets, one npc got tinkleed and threw a couple of punches, so I cut him in half. Got an achievement for murdering someone lol. Then I ran into a guard who was not so pleased with me achieving that, demanded I pay a fee, I refused, and then he cut me in half. Was interesting lol.

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I'm sitting here, enjoying a nice, plump, juicy peach, and I couldn't help but think about just how this beautiful example of the perfect food got here. I'm sure there are many millions of peaches just like this one. Some are put into cans, probably by someone in a factory downtown, but that would still leave millions and millions of peaches just for me and you.

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See! With just a little thought, and either a heavy blow to the head or an early childhood trauma, we can find a solution to any problem.

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Ban.

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Edit: I was being way too catty. Pun intended.

.......  Feel like knowing too much ruins that first play through - can't really ever get that back hah!

Amnesia helps.

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Going to be in Bakersfield for a fencing tournament

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Level 2 reward. And I just took a picture of the screen with my phone.

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The server went nuts when it dropped for me. Sold for nearly $100 in less than 2 minutes.

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Is there some sort of green poison fog in the second picture? Odd.

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Well that kinda sucks.  Are they trying to put the private servers out of business? lol

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By the way, anyone know how the new fangled 'exp' works? Does playing on our server give exp, or only if you play on the valve servers?

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Last night when I was doing some DM missions, people would disappear from my screen. I saw a person go down some stairs, then when I looked out the window to shoot at them, they were there for a second, then *POOF!*, vanished lol. Happened twice to me last night.

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I miss my badge

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Heh, I always get a kick out of that phrase, "Respect is earned, not given". Its adorable. Its also wrong, and will continue to get you into trouble if you insist on holding on to that idea.

Its really easy.  Drop the bravado, stop trying to be right. You have no leverage. You will not win, no matter how right you think you are. Just say, "I'm sorry, I did not mean to rush, I thought I was helping the team. In the future I will be more careful." It does not matter if you feel you have been wronged, or even what the truth is. The phrase, "Life isn't fair" is actually true, and the sooner you realize that the sooner you can just relax and have fun playing this terrible game again lol.

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10 years today, since the video was uploaded!

http://www.warcraftmovies.com/movieview.php?id=1666

Still makes me laugh.

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Naked. The cool night breeze rolling over his limbs and torso, the sweat on his body glistens in the moonlight. His lips curl into a half smile as the crisp night air gently licks across his chest....

Any other questions i can answer for you Mr. Fairweather?

LOL

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TB doesn't apologize for anything, not even Scouts_skylands lol

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"Well there's your problem!"

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We will not get over 30 (even 30 seems like a big stretch) with just the CS crowd. If we can't get the L4D crowd to become invested in this event, I don't think we are going to be able to swing it. I'm not sure what would entice them, perhaps Jackie or someone inside that group could let us know what would bring them out to a lan.

Without the L4D community showing up, we should probably abandon the Hotel idea, and focus on smaller venues, like when it was in a barn or something lol

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