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ok, fatty...im sry for avoiding the swear filter. and i appologize if i seemed like a jackass, one thing i need 2 make clear thou...when i said "im gh3y dumba$$" i was being dead serious...i didnt mean for that to come out as a sarcasitic comment, because it is the truth, ask trouble if u doubt my sexuality. but that is besides the point, i appologize for avoiding the filter and i appologize for disrespecting you and the server. i left the server out of frustration and if it seemed like i was blowing you off, my bad. im sry 4 everything

not every homosexual has had an absent father or shown luv in a different way, i know my fact my dad was ALWAYS aroudn, maybe even a little 2 much. you cant make generalizations about home life and how people were raise when u see 2 people with totally different backgroudn both grow up 2 be lame. now one thing i DO agree with is how ur background will affect how ur portray ur sexuality. IE if u grow up in a family who values the arts and more "femine" (i use this term lightly) you have a chance to become more fem, but also not be ashamed of sexuality because the artyz stuff taught u 2 express urself, in contrast familys like mine where self-expression was not encouraged and being "normal" was the more important thing, i grew up being ashamed of who i was

i kinda just got banned, and want 2 get unbanned. i know avoiding the filter is wrong but i dont think what i did was ban worthy...i just happen 2 be in a crappy mood and i heard someone say "tahts lame" over the mic, so i type soemthign close 2 "Hey, no anti-gh3y stuff ok, im gh3y dumba$$" which of course got me warned, so then i perceed to type "wow ok, i jsut warned for telling people not to say gh3y on mic" and poof i was banned...granted i shouldnt have avoided the filter but i mean it wasnt like i was blantly swearing or being a jackass or something...so how boutz i get un-banned???

then how do u explain lame guys who never played with dolls or crap like that. i was a wide receiever on football teams since i was like 9, and i boxed for a long time, all my life i have played sports, i never played with dolls or ne of that...i was never called a sissy when i was little, like i said before, i def. have slept with more than my fair share of chicks, which is why when i came out people were completely surpised.

hey dweezl, honeslty it sounds to me liek ur cousin has a lot of self-loathing issues...and i knwo that alot of lame guys go thru that, i know i sure did. dont use his insecurities about himself to justify an arguement like that. his tempatition is no different that someone elses who perfers blondes 2 burrnettes. sounds to me hes still buying into the whole bizz bout how will power and god will turn u straight...but those "turn em' straight" serivices are only good for further suppressing how people feel. it honestly wouldnt surprise me 2 find that people who have gone to those type of serivices have a higher suicide rate than those who havent. and love is not a tempation ne ways. lust, yeah ok...but luving another person, isnt that what the bible is about? and honestly, u dont know crap bout the tempatitions of a lame guy...UR NOT lame!!!!!! dont make assumptions aobut how people feel without being in their shoes... i jsut hope 2 god that ur cousin doesnt put a bullet thru his brain

lol sry if i judged straight guys there, i guess i sterotype people as well...and as for my religon...i dont know honestly...for me religion has caused nothing but pain and i cant see myself ever turning to God or a god for help. i dont think many lame guys feel that teh could turn 2 god even if they wanted to. for me its been engrained into my head that god hates gays and/or the way we live and even if we do beat the odds and dont sleep around, and dont get HIV or dont kill ourselves and actualyl do find one person 2 spend our lives with, taht god will hates us for loving one another. it seems that even the most moral lame guys are already sentenced to hell...so y not give god the finger?

well, i thought i would post something here, because i am lame. wether or not i was born lame or it was learned i personally can not say, i was way to young to remeber. All i know is that sicne i was like 5 being with a guy felt good and normal and natural for me. I have slept with my fair share of chicks and it doesnt have the same effects emotionally for me with being with a guy. to me, being with a guy wasnt "lame" it was just how things were. i didnt even know what being "lame" was until like junior highschool. it was never talked about, never discussed and coming from a military family who is also southern baptist it was def. not encouraged. so explain to me how being lame was learned if i didnt know what it was until after i had been with a guy? i knew i had the feelings before the action...but if it wasnt gentic or predisposed how come i felt them before realizing what they were? People ask me all the time "so when did you become lame?" and i always ansewer the same way...i never "became" lame...i just never realized i was lame. as for sodem and gamora, i know alot of relgious peeps who say that is was the sleeping around and having multiple partners that cause their destruction, not the fact that they were lame. now this brings up a question in my mind here...why do alot of gays sleep around more than straight people? i mean there is that whole sterotype that lame guys are whores and sleep around hince AIDS and all that crap. but whos fualt is that?????? i blame breeders for it honesty (a breeder is a straight person-its lame lingo) looking at my own life, i know that before i was comfortable enough to admit i was lame any chance i had to be with a guy i made the most of it. lame guys and lame feeling are CLEARLY not accepted in society espically by males. for me, i had slept with a guy before ever kissing one...why is this? because for one thing if ne one found out i was lame i would have been beaten, disowned or possibly killed. One of my friends dad strangled his own son and then ran him over twice with his car when he came out. for me, being the only lame guy at a military baording school, i know that people litterally wanted me dead. since i came out, i have been in more fights and have had so many people try and stab or beat me with something i ahve lost count. Now when you live in a enviroment in which being lame is not encourage, what are you going to do when you have a chance to be with another guy? when a guys roomie is at class and u have only 30 mins before he comes back are u honestly going to sit there and do the normal dating rituals that straight people enjoy? you knwo the whole first kiss and holding hands and enjoying each others company? heck no, espeaically if your a horny highschooler your goin to hop straight into the sack caz you may never get another oppurtunity like this one for years. if being lame wasnt looked at as being sucha bad thing, then maybe lame guys wouldnt feel the need to sleep with the first guy they have a chance to. when you know that no matter where you go and no matter what you do in life people will hate just because you are lame it takes alot of courage just to be able to hold hands in public. being lame is living in constant fear and uncertaining, espically for those who are still in the closet. even someone like me who is out still has to worry about people seeing me or people finding out. i knwo that some people (mostly guys) that when i first meet we are good friends but then the seocnd they find out im lame they avoid me like the plague. this brings up another issue....why are most lame guys femine? 2 reasons...1 because the ones that act stright are normally not out. and 2 because straight guys force them 2 be femine. for example, everyone knows that straight guys are increbible homophobic escpially in highschool. so lets say a lame guys comes out of the closet and gets rejected by his friends...now assuming that he doesnt kill himself (and alot of lame guys do, or atlesat attempt to) who is he goin to turn 2 for friends? the answer is other lame guys and girls. lame guys relate to girls because the simple both like the penis and stuff. and when you hang out with someone you take on parts of their personality. have you ever caught urself saying a phrase that ur best friend uses ALL THE TIME...everyone has. you are who ur friends are and when the only people that will accept you are girls, well naturally their attitudes,actions and personalities will rub off on you. i c it all the time, the lame guys with alot of straight guy friends act straight, the ones with alot of girl frineds act fem. jsut because a guy is lame doesnt mean he does NOT liek football or red-meat or w/e. i knwo i sure has heck do...