How are you doing ash ? Don't feel bad for getting involved with family, that's what they are there for.
I pray that you find happiness. If you want change bad enough you will change. I was glued to my monitor for a few years but i've gotten past it, you can do it bro.
Suicide is no answer, you know that. I lost my mother to it, it hurts so many people it's not worth it. The absolute best way to get out of the rut is to get out. Get out of that room, get out of your house and go anywhere, go lots of places, often. You WILL meet new people that are like you, trust me.
Blessed be bro, keep in touch