I can call myself an old-timer because GC was technically started before CS even existed......with cat5 running up and down vents in an apartment building LAN, we played HLDM, built maps, and stomped on the floor to show our displeasure for kill we didn't like.
Fast forward 15 years today.
No wait, rewind 14 or so back to the early beta days of CS. If you watched me play today you'd never believe that I could carry a 3:1 ratio consistently. I'm not joking. Give me an MP5 and a nade, and I brought lots of death and destruction and weakened a bunch of others. (side note, I don't believe there will be a person reading this that viewed my recording of Watchtower's 6 person nade kill on Inferno during a match....unreal...never forgotton)
Ok, back to present. I suck.
No really....I really do suck. The skill level in CS is unbelievable. Granted for the last 8 years I only hopped on when I was 3 sheets.....but regardless.
Here's why I don't know if I can make a comeback or difference anymore in this game:
When I was 3:1, people would listen and let me call plays. We would do amazing things vs. a team with no organization. When I was 2:1, still could rally a team, even as time went on and I could barely stay 1:1, my name was enough that people would listen, and because simple teamwork prevailed, we could dominate.
I don't want to call the plays anymore. I don't have a right to call the plays any more. But damnit the people on the top don't call plays they just complain and make excuses. Ask the guys of xT.....I take orders pretty well, I'm not proud, there's no ego. Give me an assignment. I'd do the same thing in the pub server, no problem. But while we call it a "competitive" server....is it really a teamwork-based server?
Maybe it's too early to tell. I'll not give up yet.
Funny story, tonight on Dust2, we are getting drilled....down 2-7 as CTs....ok, and round after round, nothing. I'm like, let's go, we have to change something here.....everyone get a SMG and rush up the middle!!! I died alone...... charisma -5. Not a single soul. Whatever, I wouldn't listen to me either....but my point is this....we need the skilled people of the server to be organizing things, not just making excuses (most of those present won't even read this....we have to breed them).
Ok, I have much more to say.....but I'm done for now. I'm still better than my children (rofl).
This will be my blog though.....because FragFestOhio was built on CS and our community group. I feel it will survive on it. When this ends, it's probably over for me between FFOs (meaning I'll play it there) as far as CS goes.....
My last concern: there wasn't any laughter. Barely any if any at all. I saw a sense of humor in Badplayer an Queen somethingorother....(both GC, thank you, sorry queen i'll learn your name), but aside from that....
You gotta have fun.
You gotta be able to laugh, most of all at yourself. poop, laugh at me, but not in a mean way! That's not GC!
Maybe next chapter I'll tell you about the guy who I wanted to strangle tonight, but only kicked......I'd be fine going 1:10 (btw I held a 1:2 most of the time, besides d2!), and I'd be fine laughing at myself trying....but to be demeaned....to be put down...to be witched at....cause you suck.......I thought I banned a ton before.....ooof....now I'm a big fat target for abuse.
......to be continued...we shall see how it goes! I hope that I can make a difference, but maybe my time is done!?!?