Heart, imagine this. For a long time I was in the exact same position as you because of her though not me. I can completely sympathize with you and your situation. The only thing I did differently though was to realize that not all women were bad just that I had a bad situation. In doing that I kept myself from becoming a depressed person or a person who was bitter with the world. Just keep smiling because whether you know it or not you'll always make someones day by doing it