Ok lets finish this so I can go study.
I have a "System" for kicking people. I usually don't kick people for minor things like language or "goofing around", but if you continually do bad things I will kick you (ie: if you are on my radar I'm not as lenient). In this case you started the match with bad language which put you on my radar, then you lied about a command which warranted a kick. whatever, I don't need to justify kicking you
you came to the forum and raised crap, that warranted a ban for a couple days. I put it out there that I was disabled which in retrospect wasn't the best idea, but you attacked that without cause, I was saying nothing mean to you... just hoping you would calm down. You handled it poorly which warranted a perma ban
you ask jackie and biggs to add you on steam so you can talk to them. Why not me? I am an extremely understanding person and was willing to educate you and work this out. So you missed that chance.
your apologies are extremely arrogant, " I deserve to play on the server"- no, you don't. GC is an extremely fair and open place. I am proud to be an admin and uphold these standards. If I make a mistake I acknowledge it, hope I am forgiven it and learn from it. You have done none of the above.
So what could have been a temporary ban escalated unnecessarily to a permanent one at your fault. Take some time to think about it, and talk to me in a month if you think you have changed and learned something about being a decent human being and can show it. (See, even here I am understanding and any other admin would just say good riddance contrary to your original opinion of me)
So, ban stands, and I am proud gc supports this.