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GC is pretty amazing. I've been pretty inactive for a few years, but I had some great times here. I'll get discord and hop on Rust tonight or tomorrow and check it out. Thanks to everyone, except JackieChan. He knows why. Shaftiel

Yeah, I wish I could have gone, all of XT does. But we have a wedding to go to in a couple weeks so that kinda precluded us from showing up. I really hope more show up than listed or mentioned. Good luck! I miss all of you (except San </3) Shaftiel

Smells like a bunch of old men in here. Shaftiel

I'd be interested.... Shaftiel

Saturday is Halloween.... Shaftiel

And thats all I have to say about Lunk. Shaftiel

And then he crys about how you went the wrong way. <3 Shaftiel

No. Never. Me and my then wife were rear ended by a drunk driver. Luckily we had just dropped off my son with my parents for the weekend, because the force of the crash broke the backs of both our seats, causing them to crash down onto the back seats were my son would have been, and would have crushed his legs. We blacked out for a couple of seconds, and my wife miscarried what would have been our second child. Shaftiel

Never drink and drive. I'm so glad that Tirtul is doing well, and that it was not a more serious accident. Shaftiel

lol. I'll be there. I will not win. Shaftiel

Sounds like you are really struggling right now. I have not been following this, or even known about your situation before now. However, I would suggest that you take a moment and just stop, take a deep breath and just let it out. Sit down in a quite place and try to think about who you are, distance yourself from the hurt and confusion. Just quietly, in a detached, non judgmental way, think about yourself and what you want. What are you after, whats your goal? If it helps you can write your thoughts down. DO NOT belittle yourself, its fine to note areas where you can improve, but its not ok to use them as weapons against yourself. This is not the time to reflect on the past, or relive old hurts. What you are doing is taking stock of who you are NOW, and what you want to be in the FUTURE. Once you know who you are now, and what you want to become, you just need to find out how to connect the dots to get there. Trying to commit suicide twice this last week is not a good use of your time lol . But seriously, this is about what makes you happy and what makes you... you. If what you want is to be a woman, then go be a woman. Hold your head up and smile, you can change your weight, you can change your gender, you can be the person you see yourself as. It will be a long, hard, painful journey, but at the end of the road you will be the person you feel you are meant to be. Conversely, if you decide that being a man isn't so bad, there is absolutely no shame in changing your mind. Who you are is not determined by your gender, or sexual preference. Shaftiel

My kids would like to play on the server again. Corwinofchaos Riplash21 Thanks, Shaftiel

Nice! We need to get together and go wreck people in the World v world Shaftiel

I'm starting back up I think. Tried it out again last night, picked some pockets, one npc got tinkleed and threw a couple of punches, so I cut him in half. Got an achievement for murdering someone lol. Then I ran into a guard who was not so pleased with me achieving that, demanded I pay a fee, I refused, and then he cut me in half. Was interesting lol. Shaftiel

I'm sitting here, enjoying a nice, plump, juicy peach, and I couldn't help but think about just how this beautiful example of the perfect food got here. I'm sure there are many millions of peaches just like this one. Some are put into cans, probably by someone in a factory downtown, but that would still leave millions and millions of peaches just for me and you. Shaftiel

See! With just a little thought, and either a heavy blow to the head or an early childhood trauma, we can find a solution to any problem. Shaftiel

Ban. Shaftiel Edit: I was being way too catty. Pun intended.

Amnesia helps. Shaftiel

Going to be in Bakersfield for a fencing tournament Shaftiel

Level 2 reward. And I just took a picture of the screen with my phone. Shaftiel

The server went nuts when it dropped for me. Sold for nearly $100 in less than 2 minutes. Shaftiel

Is there some sort of green poison fog in the second picture? Odd. Shaftiel

Well that kinda sucks. Are they trying to put the private servers out of business? lol Shaftiel

By the way, anyone know how the new fangled 'exp' works? Does playing on our server give exp, or only if you play on the valve servers? Shaftiel