I was there for the first time you were banned, when Tirtul banned you for swearing. And we had asked you several times "please don't swear". I bring this up, because I don't think you are a bad person, I want to address some things you said in your post about rules and feeling chocked by admins and "i can't voice my opinions". We were very patient with you, giving you a slide for 3 maps, and finally were like "okay that's enough".
Anyway, that being said, I want to put it to you like this about voicing your opinions in game. I know we (admins) probably come off as dicks when we are like "those are the rules" "don't like it don't play here" "it's already been argued move on", ect, it's not that we don't want to hear it, or brushing you off, it becomes the focus of the game at that point. I've been on where a guy said "Hey is there an admin" and I'm like "yeah i'm an admin" and for 15 mins he's like "Why can't we swear", and I try to be nice, patient, let people voice their opinions, and address why not, but I'm also trying to help my teammates, and play and enjoy the game, then someone chimes in with their opinion, then someone who really likes the server rules chimes in. So now instead of 1 person and 1 admin having a discussion about rules it's 10 people, and our team is dying, or their team is passing on through with no resistance, so then that leads to them winning the round, and the next map load in people are now upset about losing. And it might be better for us admins to step back and say "Hey if you want to talk about it, send me a pm, or another admin, or on steam, but please lets keep the game about the game", and that's something we should work on.
I think some of the things you wrote are a bit harsh, purpose or not. I like that you came here, and voiced your opinion and feelings, I would like to see the screenshots of this game and what was said. I mean if you called the server garbage that isn't very nice. That's like if I walk into subway and i'm like "Oh your store is garbage" (mind you they wouldn't probably kick me out), but I'm sure they'd be offended, and rightfully so. This is a community we love and the people here enjoy each other, we have our quirks and tifts and fights, but at the end of the day we love being here, we love what it represents, maybe not all the time, but for the majority, I know I've got a lot of friends from it, *cough* enemies too *cough*, but that's what makes it great, we just have a lot of variety of people, gamers, and just all around good solid group with a nice foundation of rules. A way to enjoy gaming without trolls, or rule breakers, or punk kids/adults that want to cuss the world, and say foul things like the n word over and over, or spam music for whole rounds. And we can get a little hot under the collar when someone challenges that, or insults it. BUT we are also a forgiving community, you can do everything under the sun (just about), and come in here, and be like "you know what I was a dick or I did do this" and we'll be like "okay just don't do it again", some might chime in with a little bit more of the "Don't do that again" or a bit of a toughness warning, but it's not because we don't want you to come back, or what you to be in fear, it's because "Hey here's a guy who said "yo i was this or that or did this or that" and that's cool of them and we like people who can see their faults lets keep them around".
Alright it's midnight I'm tired, that's my rant/input.