Gunman September 30, 2005 Share Gunman Member September 30, 2005 Wish I had checked the forums before tonight....parents treated me to a nice dinner at Chili's tonight but we were talking about it for over a week now... =\ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke October 18, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member October 18, 2005 Update: We're finally settling back into the old routine after an incredible trip to Orlando. Danielle's wish was granted so we spent a week at the Give Kids The World compound. We spent most of our time in the Magic Kingdom riding the Dumbo ride and the merry-go-round. Just before the trip, I bought new shoes and decided to start exercising again. The day we got there I was out hoofing it in 95 heat/100 humidity. Then I find out it's free ice cream from 7:30 a.m. - 9:30 p.m. and free pizza from 4:00 p.m. to 9:30 p.m. I thought, "You gotta be kiddin' me...". But I did pretty good. I'll post the pics when I get a chance to upload them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wayfarer October 18, 2005 Share wayfarer Member October 18, 2005 I was just about to post for an update!!! Glad to hear everything is going good. Sounds like Orlando was a good time. Free pizza & ice cream.... Bastards!! Don't worry Duke, I got a plan to get rid of ALL pizza & ice cream places MUHAHAHAHAHA.........wait, scratch that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ice_Berge_00 October 19, 2005 Share Ice_Berge_00 GC Alumni October 19, 2005 so much for exercising, eh duke? Nothing like a little temptation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke October 30, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member October 30, 2005 This is Mrs. Duke... Thought you all might enjoy seeing pictures of Danielle and Alex dressed in their Halloween costumes. We pray that you and your families have a safe and Happy Halloween!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke October 31, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member October 31, 2005 I've been neglecting the updates, sorry. Danielle's counts crashed so they took her off her chemo. I'm not thrilled about that to say the least. She goes back Thursday to see where they are and I pray they are up so we can start the chemo again. The kids had fun for halloween as is evident above. Nothing like a little sugar to chase those problems away, eh? I still have the anger and rage-- sorry to anyone that I might have offended, I'm workin' on it. We just got the kids down and I realized I spent all day yelling at my children...kinda makes you feel like an inferior person. I won't get into all the details, but it's not a good feeling. I'll work on it. I'll have more after Thursday. Please go hug your children and tell 'em you love them. I'm going to do it right now... RACE YOU!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
becca48 October 31, 2005 Share becca48 Member October 31, 2005 I've been neglecting the updates, sorry. Danielle's counts crashed so they took her off her chemo. I'm not thrilled about that to say the least. She goes back Thursday to see where they are and I pray they are up so we can start the chemo again. The kids had fun for halloween as is evident above. Nothing like a little sugar to chase those problems away, eh? I still have the anger and rage-- sorry to anyone that I might have offended, I'm workin' on it. We just got the kids down and I realized I spent all day yelling at my children...kinda makes you feel like an inferior person. I won't get into all the details, but it's not a good feeling. I'll work on it. I'll have more after Thursday. Please go hug your children and tell 'em you love them. I'm going to do it right now... RACE YOU!!!! <{POST_SNAPBACK}> I hope that everything goes well on Thursday. You guys are in our prayers. So were they able to go out trick or treating? Becuase the last that we heard that you guys were home all the time. Well when things get better we are going to have to all get together and have dinner or something. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Preacher November 1, 2005 Share Preacher Member November 1, 2005 Stop calling me a woman!!!! stress + minor problems = unfocussed anger It's a universal truth, just say you're sorry and a wonderful thing happens, They forgive ya Kids are awesome. I'll be praying for her this week my friend. I'm making some major changes in my church and might even be allowing our church to be absorbed into another. Needless to say I'm scared to death. I know it's nothing close to what you have on your plate but pray for me too . God loves a cheerful giver, when you need the most give the most. The old saying what goes around comes around is so very true. God bless you and your family bro. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke November 1, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member November 1, 2005 Becca, We got a chance to trick or treat at the grandparents and at a few houses around us. She got a kick out of it. Dunno if we can all get together because we're trying to limit our exposure to the public. After Thursday we'll see where we stand. Preach, I can't help callin' you a woman, I call 'em as I see 'em!! Fear of the unknown is the worst! Isn't it?!?! If you were going to prison I'd be worried but you're going to another church so the worst they can do is...well... send you to hell I guess. If you focus on the busy work, the irrational fears don't have time to play with your head so stay busy. Don't hope for a good transition, MAKE it a good transition. When all else fails, bat your eyes and flash some leg. I hear that works pretty good when women want something... I'll pray for you and your church. Thank you, friend! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Preacher November 1, 2005 Share Preacher Member November 1, 2005 so the worst they can do is...well... send you to hell? ROFL Perspective is best attained by the idiosycracies of the wierd people around us lol. <3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke November 11, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member November 11, 2005 Update: To recap, Danielle's counts dropped to zero so they stopped giving her chemo. It's been three weeks (maybe two, I lose track of time) and yesterday she went in to see if her counts came up. They ARE up enough for her to start her chemo again. Praise God! She's been fighting a virus that presents as a rash around her nose. It's been well over 2 weeks so I hope she can kick that soon. Also, she still has bone pain but seems to tolerate it. All in all, I think she's progressing. I've been struggling with irrational thoughts over those 2-3 chemo-less weeks. That and the anger. I'm tired of being angry, but it just doesn't stop. I still don't know where to direct it. I'm still playing CS at night to vent a little. The HS are coming a little easier now and we all know how good THAT feels. But it's just a distraction from the thoughts stampeding through my head. How ironic is it that a poison is my security blanket? Why am I so dependent on that poison? Why don't my calculations come out to 80% survival rates as claimed by the protocol? Is her bone pain chemo related or more cancer? Is my son in danger? Is my marriage in danger? Do I look fat in these jeans?? Lotta questions out there. I hide in the shadows of jokes, distractions and denial. I guess I'm afraid of the brutal reality of it all. I don't know if it's the right way to handle things or not but it gets me through the day. If I we're forced to show my true feelings 24/7, I would not be a pleasant person (and I work in retail! Figures...) I can't seem to take charge and MAKE a change, any change. The drive just isn't there. What motivates people to do things? To lose weight, to be emotionally strong or to work hard? What changes people from watcher to do-er? What is the actual factor that motivates people to change? More questions... Danielle doesn't get chemo or labs for another month so until then, keep on keepin' on. Chase 'em down and hug 'em. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Clueless November 11, 2005 Share Clueless GC Alumni November 11, 2005 It would seem that you already have the main component required for change, and that is the knowledge that you need to. Knowledge and desire are the main catalyts needed, all you have to do now is combine the ingredients. Danielle has done alot for me now that I am reunited with my little ones. Not an evening goes by when I tell them goodnight, that Danielle doesnt enter my thoughts and makes me remember how fragile this glass box we live in really is. It makes me thankful that the kids are healthy, and hopeful that yours will remain that way. Danielle is a little trooper, I truly believe she will be fine eventually, and the survival statistics will again rise because of one more strong little girl and the family behind her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wayfarer November 11, 2005 Share wayfarer Member November 11, 2005 What motivates people to do things? To lose weight, to be emotionally strong or to work hard? What changes people from watcher to do-er? What is the actual factor that motivates people to change? <{POST_SNAPBACK}> You must forget tommorrow Mr Duke. Today is the only day you have! If you want to make changes you'd better do it now. Danielle doesn't get chemo or labs for another month so until then, keep on keepin' on. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> All my prayers are in full gear buddy! Hang in there! P.S I'll try & hook up with you on CSS! Been hooked on the Zombie server (#5) though! Working on my AWP HS! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Playaa December 7, 2005 Share Playaa Member December 7, 2005 how you doing Dukey? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke December 7, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member December 7, 2005 Danielle's doin ok but I could be better. I'm very,very nervous about tomorrow's spinal work...dunno why. The fear is just immense. She'll get the work done tomorrow and then we wait through the weekend. As long as the phone doesn't ring, she's fine. Kel's dad had a heartattack/stroke episode yesterday so that pushed the stress level a little higher, although we found out today that the clot lodged&dislodged so he'll be ok. I'll post up early next week with the results. Until then, hug 'em up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke December 8, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member December 8, 2005 Update: Kel called me from the clinic. Danielle's counts are under 1000, 600 to be exact. The doc said her eosinophils are up so he'll keep her on the chemo until the 19th. She'll get more blood work done then. And we'll decide where to go from there. That's good news. We won't know if she's clear until at least Monday. As long as they don't call, we're good. That's good news, so far. Kel's dad was released from the hospital. They're calling it a mini-stroke that self-resolved. That's good news. 3 for 3 in the good news department. Find the little ones and try this: Go find 'em and play with them until you get them to laugh. I don't mean the giggly stuff. I mean the full-on, can't breathe belly laughing. Once you get to that point, listen to them. Listen to the tone and pitch of the laugh that only a child can make. It should bring a smile to your face...and make you a better parent without you even knowing it. Appreciate the laughter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wayfarer December 8, 2005 Share wayfarer Member December 8, 2005 I'm so happy to hear how things are going Duke!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ice_Berge_00 December 9, 2005 Share Ice_Berge_00 GC Alumni December 9, 2005 That's great news Duke! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke December 10, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member December 10, 2005 Update: The doctor called us last night and practically put the fear of God in us. Remember I said we'd be fine as long as no one called? Well, he knew Kel and I were concerned about this latest spinal procedure so he called to tell us everything came back fine. WHEW!! I kept wrestling with the thought: I don't know whether to hug him for being such an incredible doc or kick his a$$ for scaring us half to death!! Her counts are still low but she's allowed to be on chemo. That contradicts the "absolute" 1000 ANC rule, but it's in our favor this time so I won't argue. She goes back on the 19th to see where they are. I'll post up then. Hunt 'em down and hug 'em up. BTW, Nukem's nickname is proving to be quite accurate. Everything he touches turns into a nuclear mess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke December 15, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member December 15, 2005 Update: I wish I had better news. Danielle is probably going into the hospital this afternoon. Her immune system has tanked and she's developed a nasty 'something' in her lungs. She's having a rough time of it right now. As expected, I won't be around too much for the next week. Someone else will have to keep Clueless in check... I won't mince words, please pray for her. Thanks all. Brian Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Clueless December 15, 2005 Share Clueless GC Alumni December 15, 2005 I will be thinking of you guys, hoping for the best. If you need anything, you have my number. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pavid December 15, 2005 Share pavid Member December 15, 2005 The best I can do is hope and pray for Danielle, you and your family. It seems so....inadequate but consider it done. Good Luck!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Preacher December 17, 2005 Share Preacher Member December 17, 2005 Prayers and blessings sent and continuing to be sent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrDuke December 19, 2005 Author Share MrDuke Member December 19, 2005 Update: Danielle has not been admitted but we're still waiting for the fever to hit 101. She's up and down,up,down,up,down... it's maddening. Last night was a good night's sleep. It's all the prayers, I just know it. Thanks for keeping my family in your thoughts and prayers. It really makes a difference. More as I get it. Hug 'em up (unless projectile vomiting is involved, then just wave politely from a distance). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ConGregation December 19, 2005 Share ConGregation Member December 19, 2005 Lol. Our family prays for Danielle every evening in our family devotions. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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